No Regrets

“It’s better to have tried and failed than to live life wondering what would’ve happened if I had tried” – Alfred Lord Tennyson

 

If I could freeze time even  for just a second I think that would honestly make life so much easier. I could treasure moments longer, find the right words to say, make better decisions and have enough time to eat breakfast before I go to work. But unfortunately until they create an APP for that, life just doesn’t work that way it’s not that easy. Which is why each day is a day that must be treasured because you can’t pause and come back to it.  I believe that life should be filled with passion. A life of following your dreams and allowing yourself to make the most out of every situation.I know how gripping fear can be, but at some point you have to allow yourself to get passed that fear and face it head on.  Because I think it’s in those times that you fully begin to live and you realize that time is on your side as you start looking forward to another day. Live your life now, don’t look back on your life and regret that you didn’t take advantage of an opportunity. Don’t let regret be your story.

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Thankful for the mess

So, this morning I woke up to the sound of a blaring smoke alarm detector and then walked into what seemed to be a cloud of smoke. Went downstairs to find my dad fideling with the stove, trying to figure out why the turkey kept catching on fire. So, me and my sister did the usually routine of blowing the smoke away from the detector with the first piece of cloth we could find and opening all the windows, hoping that the neighbors couldn’t hear any of what was going on. The rest of the day was nothing short of this craziness up until we were finally able to settle down and enjoy the delicious meal that was produced amidst the chaos.

 

I guess, life can be pretty hectic and unpredictable, believe me I can definitely attest to this. 2011 has been an amazing year but at the same time one of the hardest years for me. A year filled with drastic change,  ended friendships and uncertainty.   But admist all the confusion , craziness and disappointment. I have learned to really appreciate it all. I am thankful for the journey I am on now more than ever.The good, the bad and the ugly. These are the times I remember the most because in these times I am uncomfortable and I am forced to either let life bring me down or allow it to change me and challenge me with a joyful spirit. I’m learning from my mistakes and growing  incredibly in patience. I am really learning to  appreciate everything I have been through no matter how hard it was or still may be. This Thanksgiving among SO MANY other things  I am thankful for the chaos, craziness and all the “mess” of life, because I know by the grace of God that the mess will turn into something beautiful.

Happy Thanksgiving!

P.s I am beyond thankful for my family and friends more than I could ever say

A conversation with Donald // Direction

So, about a year ago I had a conversation with an author named Donald Miller. An author whom I have grown to really love and respect (who also has a great blog that I love to follow). During this time I was quite frustrated with life because I had NO idea as to what direction to take in life. So, after the typical ” I love your books, there really inspiring…..” I asked him a question. I simply said Donald I have no idea what direction I want to go with my life, I don’t know what God wants me to do, I am completely stuck. For some reason I thought “okay, this is it, he’s gonna tell me the best advice about how to figure out what God wants me to do”. So I had my journal in hand ready to write.” but his response was not something I quite wanted to hear or was expecting  “Well, what do you want, what do you desire?” I stood there staring at him completely confused ( In my mind I was thinking, wait what does this have to do with me?)and I finally answered “well,I don’t know” and then he answered “well maybe you should start there”

There is a quote that says”We must be who God created us to be before we can do what God is calling us to do.”

After that conversation, I started to view life a little bit differently. I no longer ignore my passions/ desires, instead I embrace them because it’s what makes me unique. God created me with a purpose, so by ignoring all those things and trying to follow the path I thought I should follow I was almost hindering myself from being the person God created me to be.  I used to think that because I did not have the desire to open an orphanage in Africa or to become a Pastor that there was something wrong with me. But I’m learning that following Gods’ will is about allowing God to use us as we are, not as we think we should be.  Maybe one day those desires will come but for now I am embracing who I am and the gifts I feel God has given me. And in doing so I have seen God open doors of ministry that I did not even know existed .  While at the same time having some doors close, knowing that there are some things I should not be focusing on.

As long as I know that my heart is in the right place and that my desire is to do the will of God, then I know the rest will follow.

I’m seeking after God,letting him lead me and in turn I am discovering who I am and my purpose in life.

 …for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.(Phil. 2:13)

 

 

Blessed// Note to self

 In times when I find myself complaining , like today I have to remind myself that I’m

Blessed to have amazing & loving parents

Blessed to have sisters that love, support me and keep me laughing till it hurts

Blessed to have amazing friends that put up with me and my crazy facial expressions

Blessed to be able to do what I love

Blessed to have stability in life

Blessed to have a house to live in

Blessed to have a full closet

Blessed to have a job

Blessed to able to whip out my bible anywhere

Blessed with opportunities

Blessed to have freedom

Blessed to serve an amazing God

Blessed, so undeserving but so Thankful

Life + Roadtrips + Worship

So in about 20min, I will be on the road for about 5 hours with two of my amazing friends.  Heading for an all a girls trip to St. Louis.  I am excited beyond belief to have a relaxed week filled with manicures, sleeping in and ridiculous night talks. I’m not quite sure what my internet connection will be like but I will hopefully be still updating throughout the week. One thing I am really feeling led to do is write more. I started this blog as a more personal blog and I still definitely want to keep that aspect. It will still included my photography because that is a huge part of my life and it’s my business but I am committing to write more 🙂 Feel free to read it but if not, I really just write for myself to document and look back at my life and to really look back at what God has been doing in my life.

Just wanted to end this post with a song I have come to really love. It’s kind of been the theme song of October for me. Absolutely love the lyrics

 

A meaningful discipline

So, today marked the last day at my job as a sales specialist. Am I sad ? HECK no , not quite.  Well,I guess it’s kind of bittersweet. Oddly enough the thing I am actually going to miss the most is the hour long commute to work. I grew to really enjoy that hour in the car. It was a time for me to be alone and just reflect on life. I decided to dedicate that time, to have fellowship with God. and I can honestly say that it has  been a life changing time for me .  I find myself growing the most when I am intentional with my time. But now as I will soon start my new job which is only 5 min away, I am nervous about how much this time will be sacrificed. No longer will I have that unchangeable 2 hours to spend with God.   I have to now make sure that I spend that time with God out of my own discipline. Something I admit will not be easy, despite knowing how beneficial I know it will be.

“Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishments.”Jim Rohn

 

Sipping Smoothies

If I could be anywhere at this moment for just one hour I would be on a white sandy beach in San Diego. With a mango peach smoothie in hand and headphones on( jamming out to a hit song from the 90’s).

Reality: Going to my part time job in a white Toyota Camry.

Where would you be?

Cheers to sipping Smoothies!

When God writes your love story

Today I sit here trying process everything I have been learning over the last two weeks. Two weeks ago I found myself in a place I so often try to avoid but yet is all to familiar. The feelings of not feeling complacent being single just hit me hard and I didn’t quite see it coming. It’s a feeling I try to avoid but that day I just couldn’t get around it. I was that girl that would read every relationship book I could find( when God writes your love story, captivating, for woman only,etc..) all because I just wanted someone to tell me that it’s okay. It’s okay to be single, it’s okay not be in that place yet that I so desperately wanted to be and I wanted to know what I was doing wrong. After reading those books I would get a calm sense of peace, that would gradually start to fade until I picked up another book.

Then recently, on my hour long drives to work I would find myself talking to God and just being honest and open with how I was feeling. Words cannot express how life has changed over the last two weeks because of it. I would read these books and cling to every word, thinking I would have to follow all these rules in order to be in a relationship or the ultimate goal marriage. Things like preparing yourself for a relationship, writing letters to your future spouse( well, I never actually did this one), or  being the perfect Godly woman.

I guess what I am trying to say is that even though these books give really sound advice, for me they meant nothing if I am just looking at these things as the ticket to a relationship. I feel that God has been telling me that I was focusing on the wrong things. He was telling me to let go already and to let him handle it. A sense of relief and peace just surrounded me after realizing this. So for now I am focusing on loving myself and allowing God to change me into that person that will be ready for a relationship when the time comes. As I cling to God, I am realizing that all the things in those book just start to happen naturally.

I am focusing on doing the things I love. Focusing on my life and investing in the people around me.  I am living my life and trusting God to do the rest.  Life starts now, I should be enjoying it not wasting it or putting my life on pause wishing for things to happen. I am embracing life, learning to Love myself  fully and loving life just as it is. My ideal plan didn’t quite work out but that’s okay because God’s plan is better.

“Do not arouse or awaken love until it’s ready” Song of Solomon 8:4

Happy Wednesday!

 

 

 

Distractions + 30 day challenge

I am usually not one to back down from a challenge, especially one that I know will be beneficial but I found myself almost doing that today. I have definitely been challenged by a sermon two weeks ago at my church that talked about staying focused on the things that after you do them make you feel some what uplifted or have a positive effect on you rather then no effect or a negative one. So after some deliberation I finally decided to challenge myself. So starting with the month of October till December I will be taking on 30 days of challenges. Each month 30 days of different challenges.

OCTOBER 30 DAY CHALLENGES

*Read the New Testament in 30 days ( found here)
* 30 days of encouragement ( write an encouraging letter to someone each day)
*Walk a marathon in 30 days (found here) ( gonna start counting my steps)
*Save for 30 days to buy a new camera
* No Facebook for 30 days( may extend this)

Today, I have been contemplating whether or not to deactivate my facebook account. Now facebook is not the only distraction in my life that I am planning to cut off but it seems to be the most time consuming and the least beneficial at the moment. Let’s just say I don’t walk away from facebook feeling revitalized and/or motivated.

I love facebook, I love connecting with friends but  I found myself constantly on facebook for no reason, seriously it got so bad that I would go on randomly like 4 times a day just scrolling through my news feed. I found myself seeking approval and confirmation through facebook and I realized how much of an unhealthy distraction it was becoming. But, even despite those things I still wasn’t convinced to deactivate my account. Then one of my favorite photographers Haley Sheffield wrote a post about giving up facebook on the same day, with reasons similar to mine.And I realized what I had to do. Deactivating it will just be a reminder to myself to focus on other things, not necessarily because I can’t handle having one, I’ll be back. I am not sure how long my account will be deactivated, maybe I should set a goal.Facebook is just the first step of me getting some distractions out of the way.

And yes, I know I just wrote a post about how excited I was about my new facebook fanpage and thankfully that will still be up.

So, how do  I plan on focusing my time when I get bored. Well……

 

 

 

Simple Reminder- Thursday thoughts

Today the familiar place that I often drive by suddenly became a place of peace and clarity. Many for graduation if given some type of transportation as a gift that usually means a new car. But for me that meant a shiny new bike! So,after stepping outside I decided today would  be a great day for a walk/bike ride and I say that because my tire ended up getting busted so my bike ride turned into a bike walk :(.  But it was probably one of the best bike walks I have ever had. I became more aware of my surroundings and I was able to view the place I often drive by differently. I was surrounded by natures beauty and it seemed so still and peaceful.  It was in that moment that I realized that I should be more appreciative of where I am at, my surroundings, the people around me and all that I have. So many times I am focused on the future that I don’t appreciate the present.I guess that’s just how my brain is wired, always looking for what’s next. I just drive past life trying to get where I need to go without stopping and being thankful for where I am at now. I am learning to appreciate the small things in life and to count everything as a blessing. It is something I have to constantly constantly remind myself  and today was one of those days{1 Thessalonians 5:18}