When God writes your love story

Today I sit here trying process everything I have been learning over the last two weeks. Two weeks ago I found myself in a place I so often try to avoid but yet is all to familiar. The feelings of not feeling complacent being single just hit me hard and I didn’t quite see it coming. It’s a feeling I try to avoid but that day I just couldn’t get around it. I was that girl that would read every relationship book I could find( when God writes your love story, captivating, for woman only,etc..) all because I just wanted someone to tell me that it’s okay. It’s okay to be single, it’s okay not be in that place yet that I so desperately wanted to be and I wanted to know what I was doing wrong. After reading those books I would get a calm sense of peace, that would gradually start to fade until I picked up another book.

Then recently, on my hour long drives to work I would find myself talking to God and just being honest and open with how I was feeling. Words cannot express how life has changed over the last two weeks because of it. I would read these books and cling to every word, thinking I would have to follow all these rules in order to be in a relationship or the ultimate goal marriage. Things like preparing yourself for a relationship, writing letters to your future spouse( well, I never actually did this one), or  being the perfect Godly woman.

I guess what I am trying to say is that even though these books give really sound advice, for me they meant nothing if I am just looking at these things as the ticket to a relationship. I feel that God has been telling me that I was focusing on the wrong things. He was telling me to let go already and to let him handle it. A sense of relief and peace just surrounded me after realizing this. So for now I am focusing on loving myself and allowing God to change me into that person that will be ready for a relationship when the time comes. As I cling to God, I am realizing that all the things in those book just start to happen naturally.

I am focusing on doing the things I love. Focusing on my life and investing in the people around me.  I am living my life and trusting God to do the rest.  Life starts now, I should be enjoying it not wasting it or putting my life on pause wishing for things to happen. I am embracing life, learning to Love myself  fully and loving life just as it is. My ideal plan didn’t quite work out but that’s okay because God’s plan is better.

“Do not arouse or awaken love until it’s ready” Song of Solomon 8:4

Happy Wednesday!

 

 

 

Simple Reminder- Thursday thoughts

Today the familiar place that I often drive by suddenly became a place of peace and clarity. Many for graduation if given some type of transportation as a gift that usually means a new car. But for me that meant a shiny new bike! So,after stepping outside I decided today would  be a great day for a walk/bike ride and I say that because my tire ended up getting busted so my bike ride turned into a bike walk :(.  But it was probably one of the best bike walks I have ever had. I became more aware of my surroundings and I was able to view the place I often drive by differently. I was surrounded by natures beauty and it seemed so still and peaceful.  It was in that moment that I realized that I should be more appreciative of where I am at, my surroundings, the people around me and all that I have. So many times I am focused on the future that I don’t appreciate the present.I guess that’s just how my brain is wired, always looking for what’s next. I just drive past life trying to get where I need to go without stopping and being thankful for where I am at now. I am learning to appreciate the small things in life and to count everything as a blessing. It is something I have to constantly constantly remind myself  and today was one of those days{1 Thessalonians 5:18}

Thursday Thoughts

I honestly cannot believe that it is already September. As I sit here I reflect on how my  life has changed over the last couple of months. 4 months ago I was cherishing every minute of life in college and life with amazing friends. Some who I may never see again and others who will always be a part of my life. After that point I had no idea what was ahead for m,e let’s just say my career path was a little hazy. I completed my degree in Marketing and Fashion Merchandising hoping to embrace some part of the Fashion world. But not really sure if Fashion was the route I wanted to take.  Which then brings me to June. I decided to put off making the big decision and told myself I wouldn’t start looking for a career path until August.  So kind of on a whim I decided to move to Nashville for two months, hoping to get some sort of clarity as to what I wanted to do. I interned with a designer while there and spent the rest of my time doing things for myself.  Kind of a selfish time in my life but something I so desperately needed but little did I know that it would become a turning point in my life. I came back  changed by my time there and with filled with some sort of clarity.

“Faith is a mindset that expects God to Act”. Things just started falling into place when I dared to dream big, knowing that all things are possible through Christ (Philippians 4:13).

This post is a little more personal than I usually post but I felt it was important to explain what lead me to where I am right now. I started this blog to document my life and this journey of photography that I have just started. I know I’ll make mistakes and I will grow as a person and I wanted to document it all. I don’t quite know where God is leading me as a photographer but I am dreaming big and allowing God to take the lead.

On a lighter note 🙂

I am definitely excited I got some business and thank you cards made. I am still in the branding phase so I just wanted something simple yet crafty so this is what I came up with. One thing to check off the list!

Also I have creating a blogging schedule for myself. (Tuesday, Thursday, Sunday) will be my posting days.

So, today marks the beginning of Thursday Thoughts.  Basically I’ll  just be posting randomness about my week , myself and upcoming things.